The Day Before the DAY!

Day before surgery

Okay so it's the day before surgery and my emotions are all over the damn place!  I don't have any "I don't want to do this" feelings just overwhelming feelings of how the  hell is everyone going to get along with me in the hospital.  DH, god love him, is a great guy but just does things differently than me.  And let's face it .. we get cranky when we cannot have things our own way.  As I had said before I DO NOT like depending on people.  So I have this small beach house that gets messy very quickly with two teenagers, two dogs, six chickens and a messy huz.  Hmmmm ... I won't mention the time I went away for a week and came home to a moldy toilet because NO ONE thought of spraying some bleach in there!  BLAH!  SO I guess just anxiety is just setting in.

I make sure all the laundry is done.  The house is in pretty good shape, etc.  I call and find out my surgery is the first one!  Again ... that feeling of "when is the other shoe going to drop because this seems to be going all too smoothly" starts to overcome me like a tidal wave!

OH and I DID get a message saying I had $845 on my deductible ... I went into a complete panic because I got this call THREE days before my surgery. I was like NO WAY I am going to come up with that money in THREE days!  I went into like 45 min crying spell but the DH was SO supportive and assured me we would find a way.  BUT upon calling the next morning I found out that is just a courtesy call to let patients know so when they get the bill afterwards they are not in shock.  But I was also hearing mixed messages that it HAD to be paid or the surgery would not happen.  THIS was NOT the case in my insurance.  They said to bring a portion if I could and if not then it's all good they will just send me a bill.  I showed up on the day of surgery and they didn't see anything so I will now just wait for the bill to come in and set up a payment plan.