I LOVE fashion! I love pictures and how they look! I, myself, as mentioned in a previous post am NOT photogenic.
BUT I have always wanted to be.
Seriously. I LOVE clothes, shoes. I love steam punk pictures and that fashion. I love the Victorian era when women wore all kinds of corsets and beautiful dresses. I love medieval clothing and one day WILL dress up for King Richards Fair! I made myself a corset once. I looked awesome.
BUT .....
I was always fat. I mean it is what it is. I still felt beautiful but ... there is always a stigma when larger people dress up. It is hard to be different when you are already different because you are overweight. I mean really, skinny people can dress up in a cheap pirate costume and be gorgeous. But if a over weight person does ... we are being cheap and costumey.
This is a tough world and it is hard to be different. And when you are fat ... it is harder. Because people think we have NO right to "try" to dress cute. Try to be different.
I have always had a funky side. I always wanted to dress retro and be cool and funky BUT all my life there were never any clothes to support my funkiness and when I have in the past ... it is looked at as me trying to be silly or funny.
I would NEVER judge anyone who wants to be different with their clothes or hair. I LOVE creativity and funkiness and fun! I don't care what size you are ... everyone has a right to do whatever the hell they want with their bodies, faces, clothes, hair, jewelry, etc.
One funky girl inspired me on YouTube while I was researching the surgery. Her name is: herecomestrouble88
She was so cool and funky before surgery and she is cool and funky now after surgery. She is real and she puts the shit right out there. She even had a video session after a dumping episode and had us experience it with her. How she felt, how much it sucked and what NOT to do. I think it is awesome that we can learn from videos like this. She is wacky and fun! (she is a little rough around the edges so don't watch her if you cannot handle that!)
I love her and plan on sending her a note soon letting her know!
Anyway ... I also mentioned in a past post that my weight has not really inhibited me from doing much in my life. But it has inhibited my sense of style. My self of funkiness. I am SO looking forward to experimenting with some things. My first being wigs! LOL! OMG ... wigs have SUCH SUCH a stigma. AND TOO bad because they are awesome. I have all these things inside me that people don't know about and one is ... I LOVE WIGS> I think they are awesome and if worn right can totally change who you are for a day! THESE DAYS, WOMEN HAVE FAKE BOOBS, HAIR COLOR AND EXTENSIONS, NAILS, AND VARIOUS OTHER IMPLANTS SO WHATS SO BIG ABOUT FAKE HAIR?
Wigs have gotten a bad rap due to what I refer to as prior "wig abuse". It usually went hand and hand with excessive blue eyeshadow and a big foundation line around the chin.
But things have changed and wigs along with women have come a long way baby.
The truth is that many gastric bypass patients will lose hair. Some lose a LOT and some loose a little. YOU never know until it starts happening apparently. Luckily I have pretty thick hair and I am not too worried about losing some hair. BUT my hair may never be the same and that is something I may have to face. Now am I saying that I am going to go all NUTS and wear wigs all the time? No ... but so what if I DID! The WHOLE point of this blog is I guess this ...
Let's embrace difference. People who truly love me are gonna be supportive of whatever I do, however I dress ... etc. They of course are going to KNOW that its not my real hair and sometimes after knowing someone for so long and seeing them a certain way can be kinda strange in the beginning.
*side note ... my son did NOT like the wig. BUT he has Asperger's so anything from the norm suddenly is upsetting to him. My daughter thought is was awesome and took a picture and sent it to a friend of hers and her friend sent back that she LOVED my hair! LOL! Her friend had never seen me before. Hailey was like Thanks ... its a wig! LOL! She was amazed and said she would have never known! DH could care less either way he just wants me to be happy and knows I am a whackadoo anyway.*
I mean if I go super funky and get like those super colored ones then obviously people will KNOW its a wig ... BUT SO WHAT!?!
I love me and part of loving me is just doing what makes me happy. People are going to judge one another no matter WHAT we do anyway. It is human nature. Just keep it to yourself if you cannot be kind. Because you don't have to live my life like I don't have to live yours. And I am an awesome, strong, beautiful woman ...
Here are some pictures of me and my wig. I could have tightened the whole look up but it was my first "real" wearing of it. I know when you do wear a wig you have to make sure the "whole package" is there and in the future if I explore my wig/fashion obsession I will get better at it.
XOXO
~T
SMOKING HOT we WILL BE! ... wait that sounded like Yoda! LOL!
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