I almost always somehow end up doing the wrong thing (despite my best intentions)
But I never do NOTHING.
MAYBE I should consider that option.
It is no secret that I am opinionated.
It is no secret I am stubborn.
It is no secret that I am strong-willed, strong, wild, a bit radical, a bit Willy-nilly and a free thinker.
This often gets me into trouble.
All those things above can be seen as positive traits or negative ones. It all depends on how they effect your life.
I don't feel like I am a rule "breaker" per se but I have always questioned why. Not to be a smart ass but to just either know for my own curiosity or to grow or hey what the hell ... just because.
That kind of shit gets me into trouble as well.
As I have gotten older I have simmered down quite a bit. But as I have gotten older I am also beginning to realize that I may have to simmer down a bit more.
People do not LIKE to be challenged. People do not LIKE to be questioned ... even if YOU feel like you are right.
Does not even matter.
You can be right or you can be happy.
Some think this is part of "growing up" of becoming "wiser" of becoming more of a "team player".
When I am passionate about something I tend to get emotional. When I feel like my motives are being questioned I get a wee bit bitchy.
I know in my heart I am not a malicious, belligerent, disrespectful person. Everything I do, every decision I make ... I do with thoughtfulness, as much kindness and as much forthinking and intelligence as I can.
Am I still learning ...sure.
But a piece of me wants to fight for things I feel passionate about or when I feel I am not being heard or when I feel my character or motives are being challenged.
Because I do not play like that.
I am not here to be a shit stirrer, a rule breaker or a trouble maker.
I am here to grow, learn and do some good hopefully before I leave this space suit.
Well I am brushing up on my communication skills, my emotional responses and over all bitchines. Some who know me that read my blog are saying "oh snap .... about time"
And then there are some who may be saying "um ... that's kinda why I dig you"
You cannot make all the people happy all of the time
and not even some of the people happy some of the time.
You can be right ... or you can be happy.
True fucking story right here folks.
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