Human Nature

You know what makes me sad? Like SAD to the core.
People who want to make other people sad.


Simple. People who have NO IDEA what is going on in another person's life but do things to either deliberately or passive aggressively MAKE someone sad.
That's fucked up.

It is human nature to want someone to be sad if you feel you have been wronged. Or wish "he/she would get theirs coming to them" or brush it off with the whole "what goes around comes around thing" 
And I get the whole .... "oh by showing that person it affects you ... it gives them power" bullshit.
I get it.
Like in my last post "I will control my emotions and not let my emotions control me" 
And it is also human nature to think it is always about you because as humans we are selfish and not always in a bad way but in a way where we want to protect ourselves from feeling hurt so we seek reassurance or acknowledgement from others.
BUT also human nature .. it hurts. It down right fucking hurts my heart. People who you have respected, loved, cherished and maybe even still DO and always WILL ... do something to hurt you.
Human nature to feel like shit. 

And of course you may think it is about YOU and has NOTHING to do with you.
Human nature ...again ... we all have insecurities (duh ... human!) and if there was hurt there it will resurface.

There are days when you can fight billions of years against evolution but chances are ... it will be impossible.
And if it IS about you and you, give yourself time to grieve and cry and be sad and have it affect your mood no matter how strong you are .... that is OKAY. 
BECAUSE YOU ARE HUMAN.

BUT I ALSO choose to release after I am done crying.
Breathe after I am done screaming inside.
Relax after clenching my fists in anger.
Find my happiness that is always around me after my heart has been sad.

I do not call out those who hurt me for saving them and respect for them .... and love for them.
Not because I am afraid.
I never truly hate anyone for anything they have done.  
I prefer honesty and respect in return but I do not always get it.
And that is OKAY too.
Some ... I still love and will forever.
But life moves in different ways.  It ebbs and flows. 
I choose kindness.  I choose a light heart.
I choose to be human.