In 2013, on Valentine's Day, I decide to love "myself" and have RNY gastric bypass. If you go back, back in my blog you can read about all the leading up to that. This post is about how I have been doing over the past year.
Let's start physically. Right now I am holding at 160-164 depending on the day and a size 12/14 depending on the company. I can wear a L shirt but I kinda still like a lot of XL for a comfy factor. I had gotten as low as 148lbs but people started making comments about my looking sick and that my eyes looked baggy. I personally would like to hover between 155-158. But there is a reason for the small weight gain ....that's another post! ☻ I can move around better. I can put my body into crazy positions and skip up the stairs. (Before the auto accident ....another post)
Here is the thing about my weight loss physically. I always promised to be brutally honest. I have no exercise routine. I do not go to the gym. I do not lift weights, not even tiny small ones. I do not do sit ups or push ups or planking. I do not run matprathons and really don't feel the need to. I like the "idea" of running and was hoping to try it but school takes up a lot of my time.
This all makes me very conflicted. I feel guilty. I am not saying I do NOTHING. I walk the neighborhood with the dogs. Run in the ball field here and there with one of my pups that love to play fetch. But I see others who are going to the gym 3,4,5 times a week. Some are losing fast and some are loading slower no matter what they do. Here I am having lost my first 100lbs in under 6 months and about 20 lbs or so in the other six. I hit my goal weight and then some in under a year. Did I work hard following the rules with eating? Hell yes!
So I guess here is where I fall into the emotional part of it. People ask me what have I done to lose all that weight after surgery. What exercise routine I have? My arms and thighs look good, well decent compare to others who started off looking like me in the beginning, what kinds of exercises I do. I don't lie ....I say nothing. Just day to day stuff. I was ALWAYS an active person. always active in the yard, the house just generally not able to sit still. I NEVER let my weight stop me before. I know and am so happy for those who are always trying new things because now they can! It is so wonderful! But I never let anything stop me before. If someone said "climb that tree over there" shit ....fat or not I would be climbing my ass up or die trying. If I went to an amusement park and they were like " hmmmmm ...you may not fit comfortably on this ride" fuck off ....squeeze my ass on there! So sometimes I feel like the only thing that has changed has been the amount of food I am able to eat and the healthier choices I made. I worked DAMN hard BEFORE surgery. And THAT is what I contribute my success to. I started probably two years before I even considered surgery doing little things. NO FAST FOOD, then portion control, NO SECONDS EVER! The watching sugar intake and carbs. Then I did add a wee bit of exercise like walking the dogs more than usual.
Now I am saying, BY NO MEANS, people should not be exercising or can or could achieve the same results as I did without a regimented exercise routine.
Once again I feel like you have to do what's right for you!
And that leads me to my next post where the shit hit the fan!
But before I do that ....as a wonderful surgiversary present to myself I decided to hire a photographer to take some pictures of me naked. And I want to do this as a yearly treat to myself to document how my body changes and ages along time. Also did some boudoir pictures and pin up pictures for my man for Valentines Day! I have to say it was the most awesome experience I have ever had! I came to my friends house just out of the shower in a cami and some grey yoga pants. Then I had her photograph me literally undressing ( the photographer not my friend lol) I have fully naked ones that I obviously cannot share or maybe I will one day but if anyone wants to do anything special for yourselves ...do this! This young woman is a wonderful mom, and is trying to run her photography business so she can stay home with her new baby. She set up in my friends house like a professional studio and it was amazing! Please look her up for any kind of photos you need! Weddings, baby pictures, senior pictures, etc. You will be glad you did. Here is her website: http://doinaabukarma.smugmug.com
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