I want something nice and sweet. I didn't want to post on the WLS group pages because to be honest I don't want to hear how I should go have a glass of water, a suggestion on how to make something for myself that SEEMS like a treat, go do seventy sit ups or reward myself with something non food related.
I just want some good old fashioned ice cream!
I usually get fudgicles but have been out the past few days, maybe this is why I am cranky cause I usually have one a day.
But still, part of me just wants some FN yummy ice cream. I have not really tried legit ice cream since surgery.
I don't want ice cream or something sweet cause I am sad, depressed, happy, bored or whatever. I just MISS the taste of something sweet and yummy.
I want it because I want it.
Because ice cream has always been a favorite food of mine and I like the texture in my mouth. And its summer and what's better than ice cream in summer.
But part of me also mourns the fact that even if I do eat it ... It is not the same. Maybe it never will be and that kind of makes me sad. Like I said in my last post ... Most of the time eating is really not too enjoyable any more. I get stressed sometimes always wondering if something I eat will cause me to be ill. Hardly ever do I eat something and it sits really well ...normal... In my stomach.
And like I said ...NO REGRETS HERE ...just a wee little sadness that things may never get back to the point where I feel like I can eat normally.
Tomorrow I am going shopping for some fudgicles! I hear they are on sale this week!
Peace and love,
-t
I love ice cream too and am always craving something sweet. I'll eat ff frozen yogurt instead, but will occasionally treat myself to a small Blizzard from Dairy Queen or frozen yogurt from orange leaf or one of those other frozen yogurt places! Its worth it and I've maintained my weight loss for over a year now, so it obviously isn't hurting me! enjoy :)
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