Staying motivated is fucking hard. And anyone who tells you otherwise is just lying. There are SO many things that go on in my head that I want to do or want to work on and for some reason I cannot stay motivated or the allure of a good nap takes precedence over anything else I am doing or thinking of doing. I did realize tonight that I have done SO much changing the past five years. My mind, body, spirit and emotional health has really come a long way and I should be enthusiastically proud of that but it is human nature to always want more or not think you have done enough or achieved enough.
But I cannot find the DRIVE to want more. I mean I "want" more but I feel like there is literally NOT enough time.
I am trying to be patient and wait for the feeling of motivation for specific things to come. Patience is tough for me when I want results but in order to see results you have to actually start something right?
I am still struggling with intermittent depression/anxiety and doing my best to not let it show ... But that's hard too.
Life is hard.
And anyone who tells you otherwise is just lying ...
~t
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